luv dis...

You realize this is the ego. You've closed yourself off from the world because it's easier to stay present doing nothing, but is that really presence? This seems to me to be ego protection, holding onto the good feelings, making presence personal. Awareness isn't personal, it can't be held onto, and it can't be made into a goal, yet this is what you've done.

Try allowing the doubts, fears, and fantasies to be as they are. What happens when you just watch them? What happens when you just allow them to be there? What happens when you stop "thinking" that having these doubts, fears, and fantasies is "bad"? Stop turning yourself into a problem, that's just more ego.

Alternatively, meditate on what you're feeling. Ask yourself, "why is there doubt, fear, fantasy inside?" Question why it is that you've been unwilling to get a job? This is a great spiritual practice, and it's your spiritual practice, at least for now. As Tolle says presence isn't "how long you can sit with your eyes closed."

Try one these out and see if they work. I know they work for me. Through this process I find what works for me, what I'm "suppose" to be doing. Really I'm just aligning with life, allowing life to live me. "Life is the dancer and you are the dance."

tak saba nk blik keja...membe aku tu tgu kt uma..pc, saba eh tgu...hehehe..smlm tgh duk layan game ni,tetbe cm ltih sgt..mne tak nya,bz gak la smlm kt galeri..skirmish tu x settle g...sbb amik 6 units..2 brutal enemy,2 medium n 2 easy enemy..x sempat nk wat pape,x bis2 kne storm n nuclear...x ske,x ske....n bnda yg plg bnci ialah kyrov..btul ke aku eja eh..btul la kot..hentam ja la..huhu..sbb bnda ni cm tetbe ja muncul..ble la nk blik kija ni..huhu..

ape anda akn wat if anda terjumpa wallet yg sgt pnuh ngan wang ringgit malaysia???
a. berkelakuan elok dgn memulangkan nya pd pihak berkuasa. (cm karangan pndpt mse skulah..huhu)
b. tidak mengendahknnya
c. cuba bertanya pd org sekeliling (cm jerit "ello!wallet spe ni. buang2 lak!!" ) ;p
d. tendang msuk longkang.. (eh,cm sme ngan b la..bia la..)
e. KEBAS LA! huhu
f. buntu!

1Malaysia

Wat do u think? if rse2 cm b'minat,sila hubungi 03-80235477..ni promosi sementara ja tau..korg leh design sndri..i mean da composition of logo,wording n all dat,its up to u..nk add logo cmpany kt situ pn bleh..or if nk shape product yg len pn bleh...check diz out at www.facebook.com/roshfinkeramik. Most Welcome.. ;)

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Raziq Emirudin

Raziq Emirudin...ank lelaki my sis yg 2nd..lahir mse bulan pose aritu..means skng ni dlm 2 blan..pic ni gmba dia mse bru smggu x clap..comey sgt...skng ni pp dia lg tembam..tp ada ruam cket..bese la kot bdak2..sgt2 baik dia ni..x nangis mlm, x byk kerenah, ske kt spe2 pn, da pndai gelak2..hopefully sentiasa cmtu smpi ble2 eh...InsyaAllah...Amin...abg dia ni rafiq ehsani...menyedari yg dri dia cm da kurg perhatian,so skng ni dia dlm cubaan wat yg terbaik tuk ttap jd 'da one' dlm uma nenek tu..rafiq tu stakat ni mmg cucu n ank buah kesygan dlm uma tu..sbb prangai dia yg sgt comey...plus dia sgt dgr kate wlaupn bru 4 thun.. (nk gak dia nyibuk dlm cte adik dia ni) haish..

blik pd raziq ni,dia ni wat mse ni da tunjukkan stu sifat yg sme ngan abg dia..mesra alam..x kesah la spe2 pn amik dia,dia gelak ja...snyum ja..n dia ni sgt2 ske tgk muka sndri kt mirror...tergelak2 dia..ala...rndu lak kt dia...nti nk blik melaka la..ok la..ni ja dlu kot.. ;)

da ok da font...aku yg sengal...eh..x sengal kot..cme sloww cket ja..huuhu...anyway skng ni tgh cbe nk post smething yg mre serious after dis...tp mengarut ttap cmtu gak kot..hehe..nk put mre info..about anythng...nti akn dipikirkan gi mana...npe tetbe cm indon lak...haish..ok la..bos da jeling2...
daa...

ape da jd ni.....aiyaa...

npe cm tetbe xleh nk jd kan font ni smallest eh...
x pham la...
anyone...help me plzz..
hurmm...
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games,game,gaming,gamers...

sjak2 bli pc bru ni,duit cm byk disumbangkan kpd komuniti kdai games..mcm2 cd games da..akak aku lak xnak download..xnak ada pape virus dia ckp..layankn ja la..n bru ni aku bli command n conquer, my feveret one..red alert,yuri's revenge n all dat..version lme tp xtau npe aku minat tol..yg bru agak2 pning sbb kecanggihan 3D yg melampau2nya..war craft bru pn da x bpe best sbb da ada alien yg cm mngarut..tp aku layan gak..huhu..n akak aku lak,x jemu2 ngan game kurg elok dia tu...the sims..huhu..surry..sims 2, sims 3, sumenya dia install..anyway,mmg njoy sgt ngan all dis...dtg keja,mata da cm kne tumbuk..bengkak ja..sepet...huhu..

kemengantukan..

cm bese la..kija ja..arini cm ltih cket sbb pg2 da kne angkat brg2 tuk bwk g kompleks kraf..kne setting booth arini diorg bgtau..sok da start..kitorg ada 'Hari Seramik 1Malaysia'..if x clap la..huhu..men hentam ja aku ni..tp lbh kurg tu la..bertempat di kompleks kraf,jln conlay,kl..mai rmai2 na...n smbung blik cte ltih tu td,nk pndekkan cte,aku leh t'lelap dr kul 1 smpi kul 3..selamba katak ja aku ni kn..dr dlu smpi skng,x pnah brubah prangai aku yg stu ni..huhuhu..

hitam ku putih mu...

ble hitam jd telus,
putih dipekatkan,
keruh direnangi,
bersih dikasari,
aku cme mampu mnjadi mata yg kaku,
kerna aku tau sudahnya apa...
khilafku jd dunia mu,
hitamku di sisi hatimu,
putihku di telapakmu,
aku hanya mampu memandang,
seribu kata dr hatiku,
sedikit cuma dr ikhlas jiwamu,
jd jurang api dlm tali kita...
aku akan diam,
senyap sunyi di sini,
di dlm kepompong dirimu yang dulu...
mengurung aku dgn rela..
membiarkan aku dgn saja..
biar aku di sini sendiri...
aku akan pergi..
aku akn pergi jauh..
tnpa tapak jejak sekelumit...
tanpa pinta,
tanpa kata..
senyum mu aku syukuri,
kerna Dia lbh berhak atasmu,
Dia tahu aku,
Dia tahu kau,
Dia tahu kita...
hanya pd Nya aku memohon,
senyummu,
tenangmu,
indahmu,
jdkannya kekal realiti tanpa aku...
Ampuni aku dan kita...
Ya Allah pd Mu ku bersujud..
Amin...

makan....nyam...nyam...

cbe bayangkan idup tanpa makanan.....mmg la x bpe leh nk idup kan...huhu...tp npe la lately ni aku mkn tlalu byk...obviously than b4...tkutnya if jd gumuk....actually tu la cre aku tuk lpekan problem n damn things yg ada dlm pale ni...makan...makan...makan....bru ni aku mkn kenny rogers...kenny mmg da best among da best...aduhh...bunyik lak prut...nk makannnnn.... :-)

rafiq ehsani....

rafiq ehsani....my cutest niece...big boss in da hauz...kt hotel mse g china..rafiq ni dia seorg budak yg sgt2 mndgr kata..dia gak sgt snang nk memorize smething...tunjuk la skali ja..dia akn ingat smpi ble2..sbb tu atuk n nenek dia gle syg kt dia...tp x best gak...xleh la nk mrah dia lbh2...nti ada ja yg back up..tp jarang kne mrah pn dia ni...x smpi ati nk mrah...sbb prangai dia yg sgt comey...n plg best dia pgl auntie dia ni 'cik anyaa'...huhu...sbb auntie dia ni rajin tgk cte korea kot...pastu cm ada bibit2 terpengaruh lak tu..rafiq,i luv u so much...rndu lak kt bdak kcik ni...pipi dia tu,rse cm nk gigit ja...tembam sgt...huhu...dia ni leh jd bdak kesygan kot nti kt dlm uma tu...arap2 dia berterusan berkelakuan elok cm skng ni...Amin..